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When one looks in the box, whatever remains, however improbable, must be the cat.

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The world of Infinite Detail is a small step shy of our own: utterly dependent on technology, constantly brokering autonomy and privacy for comfort and convenience. Author Tim Maughan makes the hitherto-unimaginable come true: the End of the Internet, the End of the World as We Know It. Read an excerpt from Infinite Detail below, available from MCD x FSG Originals.

BEFORE: In Bristol’s center lies the Croft, a digital no-man’s-land cut off from the surveillance, Big Data dependence, and corporate-sponsored, globally hegemonic aspirations that have overrun the rest of the world. Ten years in, it’s become a center of creative counterculture. But it’s fraying at the edges, radicalizing from inside. How will it fare when its chief architect, Rushdi Mannan, takes off to meet his boyfriend in New York City—now the apotheosis of the new techno-utopian global metropolis?

AFTER: An act of anonymous cyberterrorism has permanently switched off the Internet. Global trade, travel, and communication have collapsed. The luxuries that characterized modern life are scarce. In the Croft, Mary—who has visions of people presumed dead—is sought out by grieving families seeking connections to lost ones. But does Mary have a gift or is she just hustling to stay alive? Like Grids, who runs the Croft’s black market like personal turf. Or like Tyrone, who hoards music (culled from cassettes, the only medium to survive the crash) and tattered sneakers like treasure.


 

 

1. AFTER

The pathetic tinkle of the shop’s bell announces their first visitor, the first believer of the clay. The first of the regulars, the tired-looking mothers and lost children, the ones that come in just to catch a quick word with Mary, to thank her, to nervously leave offerings on her desk, to smile their awkward, uncomfortable smiles. The ones that just pop in to stare at the sad, pale, distant, generic dead faces.

“All right, Janet,” Tyrone says.

“Hello, Tyrone.” Janet flashes him a nervous smile from beneath her cowl of lank, greasy hair, her face gaunt pen­ cil marks on torn gray paper, almost merging into the crowds that watch them from the walls. It’s enough of a smile that he knows she’s genuinely pleased to see him, like his unprompted words to her are some minor but impor­tant victory, one of the few tiny sparks of life that separate her from Mary’s drawings.

“Is she busy?” Janet’s eyes twitch anxiously around the room, her grip tightening on the oversized blue IKEA cube bag that bulges with unknown junk.

Tyrone glances over at Mary. She’s sitting there as al­ ways, at the back of the shop, teenage eyes peering at him over the kaleidoscopic mass of debris that litters her desk­ cans full of pens, crayons, paintbrushes, and sticks of chalk, broken toys. Worthless trinkets and colorful fragments of junked history that threaten to dwarf her barely teenage frame. Gifts from believers. She smiles back at him over it all, through those heavily paint-splattered glasses of hers, lowers her eyes back down to her desk. He can’t see what she’s working on from here, the paper protected from view by castle walls of priceless detritus, and in all truth he doesn’t care. He knows exactly what it is, the same thing she always draws.

He knows it’s the face of another dead person.

Most likely, he thinks, it’s the face of another dead white person. They always seem to be white people. Dead white people. He’s seen so many of them now that he struggles to tell them apart. College likes to joke that it’s because all white people look the same, but Tyrone knows that’s not true. It’s something else, perhaps how Mary always draws them-sad, pale, distant, generic. Or maybe that’s just how dead people all look.

“Nah, she’s just drawing. Go say hello, innit.”

 

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Mary squeezes ghosts from sticks of chalk, traces lines of memory in pastel.

“Hello, Mary.”

Mary looks up, over the brim of her glasses, and her heart sinks slightly from awkward discomfort as she sees Janet’s nervous face looking back at her; feels her dis­turbed, over-focused eyes drilling into her skull. It’s not that she dislikes her, it’s not that she dislikes any of the believers-Tyrone and Grids’s word, not hers-it’s just their unfailing intensity that puts her on edge. She doesn’t blame them ; when she can see past the thousand-yard stares and the sense of odd displacement she can see the hurt, the pain, the struggle to cope with the shock. Plus it’s her fault they’re here, that they come to see her. They come because of what she does, what she is.

Grids tells her she’s a celebrity. He says people need celebrities, especially now. He says there used to be too many of them, but then they were all washed away with everything else. Mary’s not too sure about this, not sure she wants it, but she remembers his words at those times when she wants to avoid the people like Janet, to avoid the devotional gazes and awkward exchanges, to run from the responsibility.

“Morning, Janet, how you doing?”

“I’m o-kay.” There’s a high-low timbre to that last word, a noncommittal tone shift fishing for concern. Mary ignores it, not wanting to get sucked in. She always tells Tyrone she likes his music, his ancient tapes, and it ain’t a lie, but the real reason she lets him play it in the shop all day is because it sucks the silence out of the room, fills the awk­ ward vacuums, lets the pauses slip by more easily.

Janet ain’t stopping, though. “What are you drawing? Another one?”

Mary looks down at the pale paper, the reverse of a two­ foot-wide segment torn from the back of a Land Army re­cruitment poster, and for the first time this morning she feels like she really sees it. Formless pencil marks. Thick, dappled, inconsistent lines in chalk dust. Powdered history deposited on the texture of cracks from her unwashed hands. She looks, but remembers none of it, as though she had no part in its creation.

“Yeah. Another one.”

“Oh, I brought you something!” Janet rummages in the pockets of her torn, stained, but still defiantly pink an­orak, and then in the pockets of her baby-blue jogging bot­ toms, the faded trousers so short that the gray elasticated trim grips her ankles, exposing two-inch bands of pale skin marbled with blue veins as they fail to reach the rainwater-grayed, blood-flecked bandages that she wears because the ships carrying socks from China and India stopped coming.

Eventually she gives up and turns to the inevitable, mut­tering to herself as she opens wide the long-broken zip mouth of the IKEA bag, the blue plastic cube straining along its frayed seams, where it looks in places like single white fibers are the only things maintaining its hull integ­rity. Mary fears it might explode, either from pressure buildup or Janet’s fevered rummaging, and fill the shop with even more historical residue, the same sedimentary layer of scraps she’s been trying to dig her way out of all her life.

“Here! Found them!” exclaims Janet, just a little too loud, a little too excited. She thrusts forward a fist of brightly colored tubes, of various widths and lengths, her face full of glee and accomplishment. Mary takes them, smiles with forced appreciation, and thanks her as she cradles the gift in her open hands. Broken crayons; empty plastic pen shells; leadless, splintered pencils. Useless, all of it. But Mary feels some warmth from the gesture, sincerely, understands what these discarded odds and ends repre­sent to some, the value they have in their irreproducibil­ity, their nostalgia, their power as memory triggers. She understands these things way too well, and as she stares at her open palms the vibrant chalk dust that patterns them turns black and impossible to remove, as memories of scrab­bling in the dirt, digging with broken fingernails in the shit, flood her senses.

She wants to throw them back in Janet’s stupid fuck­ing face.

She doesn’t, she just smiles , thanks her again, gently lays them down on the desk. Memories fade, but the pri­vate stench, known just to her, still lingers.

Janet, about to speak, looks pleased enough, though, happy her gift has been welcomed, and Mary remembers Grids’s words. Give them what they want.

“I was just wondering, if maybe-” The same ques­tion, every day. Mary knew it was coming.

“I was just wondering, if maybe, if you were out today, and you saw our Mark-”

“Janet- ”

“You know, maybe you’ll see him out in the street, y’know.” Janet points toward the front of the shop, the light filtering in through the half-boarded-up windows. “Maybe if you see him out there you could tell him something for me?”

“Janet… we’ve been through this before. You know I can’t say whether I’ll see him. I can’t always choose who I see.”

“I know, my love, but you might-”

“I… I might, yeah, but it’s not very likely. And even if I did, I can’t talk to him.”

“But you could just tell him-”

“Janet. I can’t talk to Mark. He can’t hear me, Janet.” Mary swallows hard. “I can’t… he’s dead, Janet.”

“Yeah, but-” Janet is unflustered, not even decelerated, by this statement of unquestionable fact.

Mary decides to let her finish. The path of least resis­tance.

“Yeah, but if you do see him, yeah? If you do, can you tell him just one thing? From me?”

“What’s that?” Mary asks. Polite, redundant. She knows the answer.

“Just tell him his dad is sorry. Please?”

 

The doorbell again. Two people this time, a couple, presumably. Newbies. Husband and wife from the looks of it, father and mother most likely. Old. Well, old for around here.

They also look shit-scared. Tyrone is used to old white people looking at him and being shit-scared, but he’s pretty sure they were shit-scared before they even knew he was there. It’s in the way they stand next to each other, almost too close. Huddled. Tyrone guesses they’re not only not from around here, but have probably never been to the Croft before. The armed security on the gate, the explosions of graffiti across bombed-out architecture, that ever­ present edge of tension in the spice-scented air. It can be a pretty shit-scary place, your first time.

The guy, gray hair, gray face, gray clothes-old, washed­-out, hand-repaired, but still maintaining some aging arti­fice of respectability-stops glancing around the shop and looks directly at Tyrone. It’s clear he wants to speak, but isn’t sure where to start. Tyrone decides to put him out of his misery.

“Morning. What can we do for you guys today?”

“We… well, my wife…” The guy pauses, glances at the woman, who is still staring, silently, at the dead faces on the walls. “She wanted to come down here, she’d heard the stories. She’s… curious.” His voice trembles with fear run through with skepticism.

Tyrone nods, smiles. The stories. “Of course. Where you guys from?”

“Bath.”

“Wow, that’s quite a trip. You drove?”

“God, no.” The man laughs, politely. “God. No. We got the train.”

“Oh, they running?”

“As far as Keynsham. We walked from there.”

“Nice day for it.” If in doubt, mention the weather.

“Yes, yes, it is.” The man smiles, the fear edging away slightly. “So… I’m sorry. What’s the setup here exactly? How does this… work?”

Tyrone takes a breath, prepares the spiel, but he’s hardly got the first syllable out when he’s interrupted.

The woman floats one hand in front of her mouth, fin­gers and lips both trembling, as she steps away from her husband, her gaze fixed on a spot on the wall. On a face. Her other hand darts back behind her, blind fumbling to grasp the man’s arm, and when it finds his elbow it grabs hard, holds tight. Tyrone is unsure whether it’s to get his attention or to anchor herself, to make sure she doesn’t stray too far.

“Diane… ?” The man sounds breathless, startled. He glances from the viselike grip on his arm to her face, un­ able to make eye contact as he turns away from her, trans­ fixed. Tyrone watches the fear return.

“It’s him.” The woman takes the hand from her mouth to point weakly, the shaking increasing in frequency, as it spreads up her arm to her larynx, modulating her words. “It’s him, Alan. Look.”

 

The silence unnerves Mary. Tyrone has stopped playing the old jungle tape he was listening to-he always does when they get an ID, without her ever asking, out of respect for the customers-and she wishes it would come back.

She closes her eyes for a second, wills it to return.

Nothing. Just silence.

Eyes open again. They’re still here. Alan and Diane, peering at her from the other side of her desk, over the mul­ticolored walls built from trash and gratitude. Mary has to look away from them both again-it’s too intense, Diane’s expectation, Alan’s skepticism, their combined fear. It am­plifies her constant discomfort, heightens it. She can feel their fear merging with her own, infecting it, making it stronger.

So she looks down at the desk, at the picture they handed her, that Tyrone had taken down from the wall for them. A man’s face-no, a boy’s. A teenager. Pale, young. Glasses. A scruff of blond spiked hair drawn in yellow chalk, freckles spotted on cheeks in brown felt-tip. A child’s scrawl, a child’s face. She remembers when she first saw it. She remembers them all.

“So this is your son?” Mary’s voice is small, tiny, but it shatters the silence.

“Well, it… it bears a resemblance to-”

“It’s him,” Diane interrupts her husband, her voice as small as Mary’s, but the conviction demanding attention.

“Darling-”

“Ifs him, Alan.” She smiles, almost imperceptibly-at her husband, moisture in her eyes, her hand gripping his. It’s enough to silence him, to make him swallow back his doubt, just seeing her like this, and he squeezes her hand in return. She turns back to Mary. “It’s him, that’s Ian. Our son.”

Mary attempts to smile back at her, to transmit warmth, understanding. She has no idea if it works. Tyrone is much better at this stuff. It’s a shame he can’t do the rest of her job.

“And you’ve not seen him since… ” Mary pauses, picks her words. “Since that night?”

Diane looks wordlessly down at her lap. Alan moves forward to fill the silence.

“No, we’ve… not. We’ve had no word from him since then. I mean, not even that night-about a week before. We’ve not heard anything from him since… since every­ thing stopped working.”

“Of course. And he lived round here?”

“No, but not far. In Bedminster.”

“Southville,” Diane corrects him. From the corner of her eye Mary sees Tyrone, always eavesdropping, smile and shake his head.

“Sorry, yes. Southville. Just off North Street. He was sharing a house there. He was a student.”

“Medicine,” adds Diane, a brittle shard of pride. Dead, buried significance.

“But he was here that night?” Mary asks.

“I… we believe so. We…” Alan’s face suddenly be­ comes more sullen, his eyes fall. “We couldn’t get here. Not straightaway. Not… not for months, in fact. I don’t know if anyone realizes, but things were pretty bad in Bath, too. I mean, it must have been pretty bad everywhere. When we got here his house was deserted. There was no sign of him, just a few of his things. Not many. A few clothes. All the electronics and devices, obviously. Everything else was gone… the house had been broken into, so… what I’m saying is, I don’t think he took the rest of his stuff with him… it must have been stolen and… ”

He stops talking, like the words have just dried up. Mary recognizes the guilt, the regret, the helplessness, recognizes it all from Janet and every other parent that’s walked into the shop before them.

“It’s okay.” Diane squeezes his hand, looks back at Mary. “We were looking for months. Eventually we found an old uni friend of his. She thought he’d come up here. But of course we couldn’t get in here back then, it was all shut. But that’s what she said, that he’d come up here. I mean, that’s what people did, didn’t they? People came here that night?”

“I believe so, yes.” Give them what they want.

Diane forces a smile. “You’re too young to remember, of course.” She nods at the picture in front of Mary. “You drew him, though?”

“Yes. I’m afraid I ain’t a very good artist.”

“No… it’s great. Really. It’s a very good likeness.”

“Diane-”

“Alan, please. It’s him. Look. Please.”

Alan glances at Mary’s pastel scrawl, and then straight at her, like it hurts his eyes. “It could be him, yes. I guess… just… I’m sorry. What does this mean? If it is him, does this mean you’ve seen him?”

“Does it mean he’s dead?”

Mary takes a breath, tries to smile. This is always the hardest part. Harder even than showing them.

“I ain’t completely sure what it means myself, to be truthful.” She fidgets nervously with one of her oversized hoop earrings. “Sometimes I see people, out in the street. Nobody else can see them. They’re not fully there… just… half there.”

“Like ghosts? You see ghosts?”

“Diane, please-”

“Let her answer! Are they ghosts?”

“I’m not sure. Maybe. I guess that depends on what you believe a ghost is. All I know is that they were here that night, and they’re not always dead. I think you have to be dead to have a ghost.”

“Not dead?” There’s an echo of hope in Diane’s voice.

“Not always, no. If I see someone, out in the street, then I come back here and I draw them. Put the picture up here, in the shop. Sometimes they come in, the people I’ve drawn, or someone that knows they’re alive-and then I give them the picture. For free. These pictures here, they’re all waiting to be collected.”

“So… that’s it?” There’s an edge of anger to Alan’s voice, just faint, hidden below the frustration and loss , like he’s about had enough. “We have to wait, to see if he just happens to pass by and pick up his picture? That’s the only way you know if he’s alive or not?”

“Alan—”

“No,” Mary says. “It’s not the only way.”

 

Tyrone puts the money that the old guy gave him in a scratched black metal box. It had been hard work getting it out of him, which isn’t a surprise really—twenty quid ain’t no joke, man-but Tyrone knew he’d fold and agree to it. Just had to see the way he looked at his old lady. Like he’d do anything to make her happy, even if it was only for a few moments, and involved him spending a month’s wages on some heavily dubious bullshit. He watches Mary lead the couple—holding hands now, like small children—out into the pale daylight.

He takes the knife, its handle bandaged with black tape, out of the box and chucks the jungle tape he’d been play­ ing in there, just to be sure. Five snags, no breaks. Yet. Irreplaceable. More valuable than the two tenners he just dropped in there, to him at least. He locks the box and places it on a high shelf, pockets the key, tucks the knife into the back of his jeans. Turns around to check the shop, sees Janet standing there, still. Staring at the un­ collected faces. The dead ones.

“Janet. Yo, Janet. C’mon girl. Gotta go. I’m locking up.”

Janet turns slowly, thousand-yard stare. “Sorry, Tyrone, I didn’t realize.” He holds the door open for her as she ex­ its, flips the cardboard sign to CLOSED, and secures the locks and bolts.

“It’s a’ight, Janet. Is just a quick thing. We’ll be open again later.”

It’s bright outside, and he finds himself squinting against white sunshine. It’s pretty quiet out, still early. Airborne reg­gae vibes drift across the street from somewhere, pulses and tones, like the jungle tape stripped of its urgency. Shel­tering his eyes, he can see Mary leading her two punters down the street, down the main drag of Stokes Croft itself, toward the open gates. He’d better catch up, she’s moving fast. Mary doesn’t like to hang around when she’s doing her thing.

“Is she gonna show ’em?” Janet asks him.

“Yeah. She is.”

Janet’s little face lights up. “Maybe she’ll show me Mark again, afterwards?”

Tyrone looks at her. “You got twenty quid, Janet?”

Janet stares at him, glances down at her impossibly full IKEA bag, and then back at him. “No.”

“Then she ain’t gonna show you nothing. Look, I gotta go with her, make sure she’s okay, all right? I’ll catch you later, yeah?”

Tyrone doesn’t wait for her to answer, just picks up the pace, closing the distance between him and Mary without looking like he’s hurrying. It’s been raining overnight and the pictures have washed off some of the walls as usual, running across the pavements and into the drains at the curb in crisscrossing tracks of dull translucent color, so it looks like the buildings themselves are bleeding out, melt­ ing. He half expects that if he traces the drying paint flows back he’ll find the empty, see-through wireframe of a build­ ing, drained of all pigment.

But he’s not got time. The last thing he needs would be Grids turning up when Mary looks like she’s wander­ ing around the Croft on her own. He checks up ahead; she’s stopped now, about twenty feet short of the gates, the two punters still holding hands, their bemusement and discomfort openly betrayed by their body language even at this distance. When he’s about ten feet away from them he slows, stops. Best to give them some space, at least the illusion of privacy.

From out of the shadows of the buildings on the far side of the street he sees a hulking figure moving toward him, slowly. Ozone gives him a half nod and a fist bump as they meet in the middle of the road, his other hand resting on the dull metal and plastic of the counterfeit Kalashnikov rifle that dangles from his neck. Tyrone looks at the huge aging gun, thinks of the tape-wrapped kitchen knife stuck in the back of his jeans, and remembers exactly where he stands in the pecking order.

“Easy, Ty.”

“How’s things, O?”

Ozone shrugs. “Yeah, good. On gate duty, innit.”

“Anything exciting? You shot anyone this morning?”

Ozone laughs, rolls of fat under his neck rippling. “Nah. Nobody comes down here anymore, man, you know how it is. Not anyone wanting any trouble. Saw them two come through earlier, though.” He half nods at Mary’s punters. “Lord and Lady Marks and Spencer.”

Tyrone snorts. “Yeah, they come just to see Mary.” He slips into a sketchy, exaggerated posh accent. “All the way from Bath, don’t you know.”

“No shit. No wonder they looked fucking terrified when they saw me.”

“To be fair, fam, you a scary-looking fucker even with­ out that thing.”

Ozone smiles, a blend of amusement and pride. “True.”

Sweat patches spread from Ozone’s armpits, turning the already grayed cotton of his once-white T-shirt even darker. Tyrone’s sure he can see them moving, growing, as he stands there.

“You all right, man? You look hot.”

“Yeah.” Ozone wipes sweat from his shaved head with his forearm. “This weather, man. Done with it.”

“Don’t say that. Gotta stay like this till after the week­ end, man, at least. Carnival, innit.”

Ozone sucks his teeth. “Fuck that. Can rain all weekend, far as I care. Then maybe no one will turn up.”

“Fam!”

Ozone laughs, ripples his neck, gently taps the gun with two fingers. He glances over at Mary again. “How long she gonna be, man? You know she got big visitors today?”

“Oh yeah. Like Grids will let me forget.”

 

Three faces stare at Mary, the first two full of fear, em­barrassment, awkward impatience.

The third, scrawled on the paper in her hand, is seem­ingly blank of emotion.

Mary stares at it, traces her own badly daubed lines until she has a full image of it in her mind. Focuses, blinks.

Above her the sky starts to darken, mid-morning sun settling into evening gloom. Buildings morph and shift, sub­tle changes to both their 3D architecture and 2D surfaces. She always tries to avoid looking at the buildings, the dis­ placement is too disorienting, plus if she focuses on them too much they all go kinda weird, like they’re not really there, not really solid, like they’re made up of some patch­ work collage of old photos, the lighting and coloring on them never quite fitting together, so much so that she finds herself questioning what’s real and what’s not even more than usual, and she’s trained herself to stop doing that. Best not to know.

The sky, the buildings. Only one place left to look. She holds her breath, looks down at the ground. She knows what’s waiting there.

The lines of paint running into the drains turn red, scar­ let trickles of blood filling indents in tarmac, pooling, a spiderweb network of bloodstains that weaves around shat­tered glass and dislodged masonry to link the bodies, the remains, the limbs together. Then the sound comes in, sud­den, fast—there’s always a delay, but it always surprises her, catches her unaware. At first it sounds muted, like she’s been deafened, that fuzziness you get the day after stand­ ing near the sound system rigs for far too long. And then it whooshes in, like air filling a vacuum, the mix packed so chaotically, so densely, that it almost knocks her off her feet. Alarms, screams, sobbing, yells—from above, the low drone of engines and the ever-present skittering roll of drums.

In front of her stand Diane and Alan, oblivious to it all, even the thick, black, acrid smoke that is pouring from the broken shell of the overturned police van that lies just a few feet to their left, oblivious as the smoke spirals around them, engulfs them. They seem only half there to Mary, like they’ve been badly cut out from one old newspaper photo and stuck, with a child’s blissful lack of care for perspective and lighting, onto another one, ripped from a story about a lost cat and pasted into a story about some terrible event in some savage, distant country, their pale faces lit by a sun she can’t see.

She gazes past them, back toward the freshly hollowed­ out shell of the wall-like 5102 building as it leaks more smoke and spits flames at the darkening sky, lost figures stumbling about in the thick haze of dust and airborne debris.

And then, from near her feet, voices. Faint, distorted, panicked.

move her we’ve got to move her get her out of the road we

no no moving her is worst thing we can do jesus just hold this here no here hold that

here christ what was that we need an ambulance she needs a fucking ambulance

they won’t let any in they won’t let them in just don’t let go they’ve got to

they’ve got to got to fucking let them in now

get that fucking mask off her jesus

“He’s here,” Mary tells Diane and Alan, barely more than a whisper.

“Where? Where is he?”

“Diane, calm down—”

Mary crouches in the street, brings her face almost eye to eye with the boy. It’s definitely him from the picture, she can be sure of it now, and she realizes his expression isn’t blank, it’s intense concentration. He’s on his knees, his arms disappearing into a mess of red that Mary can’t bring herself to look at directly, she’s just aware there’s a body there, motionless, a person, parts that should be there gone, face covered by a paint-spattered gas mask. Next to the boy kneels a girl, sobbing, her clothes soaked in crimson.

“He’s here,” Mary repeats, louder. “Right here. Kneel­ing on the ground. ”

“I’ve had enough—”

“Shut up!” Diane drops to the ground, crouches next to Mary. Her hand lightly strokes the tarmac, feeling its way, as if she’s trying to read some message encoded in the com­pacted black gravel, but from Mary’s view it looks like she’s rooting around in the corpse’s abdomen. She feels sick.

She stands again, focuses. She pauses time.

Or, more accurately, she pauses one of the times. Then time. The time from that night. Smoke stops swirling, be­ comes sculpture, strangely flat, two-dimensional. Paper fragments, burnt and fluttering from the sky, suddenly hover in the air, still. Around her, the bodies that have some­ how remained upright become statuesque, broken and disfigured.

Diane is still crouched in the road, unaware of how close she sits to her frozen son.

“What’s he doing?”

“He’s trying to help people. People are hurt, and he’s trying to help them. To deal with their wounds.” She feels sick again.

“Oh, c’mon now.” Alan has heard enough. “We already told you he was studying to be a doctor, you’re just using—”

“Shush!” Diane holds her palm up at her husband, si­lencing him. “Is he… is he alone?”

“There’s a girl with him. About his age. Blond hair, pretty.” She’s lying now, slightly. She can’t see the girl’s face; it’s blurred. They sometimes are. Give them what they want.

“It’s Sarah!” Diane is suddenly on her feet, clutching Alan’s arm. “It must be Sarah!”

“Di—”

“Can you… can you tell us anything else? Can you describe him? What… what’s he wearing?” The pleading eyes. Mary has seen them on every parent that’s passed through the shop.

She looks down at the three figures, flinches at the per­fectly spherical blood drops suspended in the air around the boy’s bruised face, inspects his clothes—clearly unchanged for days, ripped and worn, splattered in blood and vomit and shit.

“He’s wearing a black coat, large hood with a fur col­lar. It’s nice. Looks warm.”

“Yes… ”

“And he’s got a bag… a bag with him. It’s full of ban­dages, medical stuff. He’s using it now, to help someone.”

“What color is it?”

The bag is so soaked in blood she can’t make it out at first.

“Green… and brown. Patterned. Camouflage. Yeah, it’s camouflage-patterned.”

“Ian… ” Teardrops roll slowly down Diane’s cheeks, and Mary finds herself surprised by how the fluid motion contrasts with the freeze-framed world around her. The man, however, isn’t moving at all, as though he’s become infected, become part of the then world, frozen.

“Alan… it’s him. That’s his bag. You bought it for him… he insisted on camouflage… you wanted to get him a leather one but… ”

The man still doesn’t move, the blood drained from his already pale face.

Enough. Mary has had enough. Time to end this.

She unfreezes then time.

There’s a roar behind her, and she turns to look. Clouds of smoke roll toward them from the direction of the gates, but it’s white this time, not black, and it stings the eyes and faces of those running to escape from it. Some of them wear gas masks like the corpse on the floor, to protect them from just this, but still they run out of the smoke.

Mary knows what they run from—she can hear it: the shouts, the thunder of hoofs on concrete—she’s seen it be­ fore, too many times, she doesn’t need to see it again. She takes her glasses off.

“It happened here,” she says.

“What?” The man finally speaks. “What happened?”

 

Tyrone yawns, stretches his arms out to his sides.

“C’mon, girl, this is long. Wind it up.”

“What, she don’t usually take this long, then?” Ozone has never seen Mary do her thing before, Tyrone realizes.

“Nah, she usually like—oh, here we go. Done.”

From their respectable distance they watch the man crumble, fold in half. The woman tries to catch him, sup­ ports him for a painful second, but she can’t hold him, and he’s down on his hands and knees in the paint-stained road.

“Fuck, man. What she say to them?”

“Well, if you believe any of this shit,” Tyrone says, yawn­ing, “then she just showed them where their son died.”

 

Excerpted from Infinite Detail, copyright © 2019 by Tim Maughan.

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