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Dec 1 2011 2:00pm

The First Explorations of Love: Camilla

Sometimes, one of the very hardest things about growing up is finally seeing your parents for who they really are. Sometimes, that process just happens to intersect with another hard part of growing up: falling in love for the first time.

Camilla was Madeleine L’Engle’s fourth novel and third work for young adults. Published in 1951, and set in the late 1940s, it tells a painful and joyful tale of three weeks in the life of Camilla Dickinson, a wealthy New York City teenager, and represents a major shift in focus and tone from her previous book, And Both Were Young.

Camilla has spent her life sheltered by her parents, who employ at least two servants and several governesses in the austere war and post-war era. Only recently has she been allowed to go to school and been able to find a friend, Luisa. (Or, more strictly speaking, had Luisa find her: Camilla is shy and often inarticulate, and Luisa initiates that friendship.) Just as she is beginning to discover herself and her world (as defined by New York City), she returns home to find her mother, Rose, in the arms of a man who is not her husband. This is a shock; Camilla has, until now, believed her family was happy. (As it turns out, she believes this in part since she has chosen not to think about some earlier, less happy childhood memories.) The situation only worsens when her mother asks her to lie, and her father asks her to spy, and when Rose, the overdramatic sort, caught between her husband and her lover, makes a suicide attempt.

In the middle of this, Camilla does find one saving joy: she finds a new friend, and more surprisingly, she falls in love, with her best friend’s brother, Frank.

The love story between Camilla and Frank, brother of her friend Luisa, is presented painfully and unflinchingly. Frank, like Camilla, is dealing with his own emotional troubles—he has just lost his best friend to a gun accident and gotten himself kicked out of school. And he and Luisa have their own parental problems: their mother is an alcoholic, facing another marriage that is falling apart. (Those still convinced that contemporary divorce rates and marital problems began in the 1960s with the women’s rights movement should certainly take a look at this book.)

But Camilla does not fall in love with Frank simply because of his troubled family, but because, to her joy, she has finally found a person that she can really and truly talk to, about everything: not just her family (she remains somewhat reticent on this, even with Frank, finding it too painful to discuss), but astronomy and music and God. And Frank leads her to another friend, a wounded veteran named David who lost his legs, who turns out to be another person Camilla can speak with. This leads in turn to some marvelous conversations, full of angst and speculation about stars and wonder and despair and God fear and truth and hope. Something Camilla terribly needs.

Camilla’s parents are, to put it mildly, awful; perhaps the nastiest scene is one where they turn on her, accusing her of insensitivity and thoughtlessness. In a rather spectacular feat of self-delusion, the parents blame Camilla’s changed behavior on her friends Luisa and Frank, instead of their own actions, and decide to send Camilla to a boarding school without consulting her. About the only one of the three adults who acts with any consideration for Camilla is, surprisingly, Rose’s boyfriend; unfortunately, he’s the sort of well meaning person who thinks it’s appropriate to give elaborate dolls to 15 year olds, and his attempts backfire, upsetting Camilla even more.

Since the book is told in the first person, and Camilla tells these stories unflinchingly: it’s hard to know, at times, if she’s aware of just how horrible they are. One conversation with her father does lead to her throwing up in a bathroom, but otherwise, as Luisa notes, Camilla has not learned to see her parents clearly. Even her realization that she hates her mother does not lead to the realization that she is angry at her mother for what her mother is doing to her.

Nor can she do much more than verbally protest, and sometimes, not even that. Camilla manages a few minor rebellions—staying out late a few nights, refusing to answer some of her parents’ questions, but when her mother announces that Camilla is going to boarding school, Camilla knows she has no choice. Her friends, too, can speak, but little else: a significant part of this book involves learning to handle things that you cannot change.

Part of the problem, often left unspoken, is World War II, lingering in the background. David and his mother may be the only two characters to be obviously physically and emotionally wounded by the war, but others still show signs of fear, resignation and doubt. Most characters seem to agree, for instance, that a third world war is coming, and they can do nothing about it.

The Christian faith that would become such a central theme of L’Engle’s later books makes an early appearance here on a decidedly tenuous note. Camilla voices a faith that will later be echoed by other L’Engle characters, but sounds doubtful about it. Frank wants an entirely new religion and an entirely new god in the post war era. Many of their conversations sound like internal debates, perhaps sparked by L’Engle’s own early explorations of faith, decidedly tested by the horrors of war. In later books, L’Engle’s characters would doubt, and even experience moments of lost faith, but their narrator would not.

One interesting note: in this 1951 book, Frank and Luisa’s mother holds a full time professional job and is the family breadwinner, and both Camilla and Luisa assume that they will be heading into professional and scientific jobs as an astronomer and doctor/psychiatrist respectively. This, too, began a theme that would be repeated in later books, as L’Engle featured professional women, including pianists, Nobel prize winning scientists, gifted doctors and more in future works.

Also interesting: none of these women would call themselves trailblazers, even though in the earlier books, at least the Nobel prize winner might have been called so. They simply take their professions for granted, as do their peers. One or two—primarily Dr. Murry in A Wrinkle in Time—face slight hostility or befuddlement from the community, but for the most part, this is not because they are working, but because they are working extraordinary jobs. I suspect the matter-of-fact tone here stems from L’Engle’s own self-awareness as a working professional, but it’s a refreshing reminder that women did not suddenly enter the professional workplace in the 1970s.

With all this, Camilla undoubtedly sounds like a very depressing book, and in some ways it is. But in other ways, it is an equally joyful book, as Camilla learns what friendship is, how to handle pain, and what adulthood is. (That last is less painful than it sounds.) And if this book doesn’t have a hint of speculative fiction in it—except perhaps for the conversations about stars and the moons of Saturn—I think it works for geeks, largely because we’ve all been there, wanting desperately to find someone, anyone, who speaks our language. And anyone who has lived through the fallout of a broken or cracked marriage can find considerable comfort and understanding in Camilla’s story.

L’Engle liked the characters of this book enough to bring them back for cameo appearances in other books and in a sequel published 45 years later, A Live Coal In the Sea, distinctly written for adults, but featuring the same painful emotions.


Mari Ness has been occasionally known to get off track with conversations about moons, typically ones yet undiscovered around yet unvisited stars. She lives in central Florida.

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14 comments
Pamela Adams
1. Pam Adams
It also sounds like I Capture the Castle, by Dodie Smith.
Mari Ness
2. MariCats
@Pam Adams....you know, the very worst thing about these rereads is that all of the comments keep pointing out how many more books I have to read. (kidding)
Pamela Adams
3. Pam Adams
MariCats,

I know. Jo Walton's Hugo re-read added about 400 books to my to-be-read stack. You should see the looks I get from my local librarians when the loans come in. Okay, that's two books by E. Nesbit, War of the Wingmen, and Travels with Herodotus- anything else?
Pamela Adams
4. Pam Adams
Can we get a list of the chosen books? I like to read ahead.
Mari Ness
5. MariCats
This is the list so far:

Meet the Austins (1960)
A Wrinkle in Time (1962)
The Moon By Night (1963)
The Arm of the Starfish (1965)
The Young Unicorns (1968)
A Wind in the Door (1973)
Dragons in the Waters (1976)
A Swiftly Tilting Planet (1978)
A Ring of Endless Light (1980)
A Severed Wasp (1982)
A House Like a Lotus (1984)
Many Waters (1986)
An Acceptable Time (1989)
Troubling a Star (1994)

If the library copy arrives in time (it's out of print) I suspect The Glorious Impossible will sneak in Christmas week. Unfortunately, I didn't realize it was still so popular and would be on a waiting list, although if a dim memory serves it's a pretty short book. (If the Orange County Public Library and I could make a suggestion, this would be a good book to bring back into print, oh Tor/Macmillan overlords!) I may also be adding a couple of other books to the list.

And yeah...honestly I feel the librarians are beginning to flinch from me when I enter the place. Just wait until we start with the Freddy the Pig books.
Kathleen McDade
6. Kathleen McDade
You know there are two version of this book, too, right? Camilla is the sanitized young adult version; Camilla Dickinson was the original novel. I'm not sure which one the SquareFish version (pictured) is.

I'm very fond of the Camilla sequel, A Live Coal in the Sea.

Oh, and it looks like there's a Camilla movie coming!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Camilla_Dickinson

http://camilladickinson.com/
Kathleen McDade
7. Wendy B
So (to expand on what my sister says above) this is neither a young adult novel in the original, nor is it L'Engle's third young adult novel. The Small Rain is an adult novel, also (later the first half was republished for young adults as Prelude).

I was interested to read your take on Rose's lover Jacques. I thought he was the ultimate in smarm; everything he does is self-serving. I thought he brought her the doll not to be kind, but to win her over and buy her silence.
Mari Ness
8. MariCats
@Kathleen McDade -- Huh. The one I have is the Squarefish edition, definitely marketed for young adults. (Squarefish is part of the overall Macmillan/Tor family, focusing on children's and young adult's literature.) Where I could definitely see the heavy hand of "keep things suitable and innocent for young people" in And Both Were Young, I saw considerably less of it here. Nothing objectionable for contemporary teenagers, mind you, but the book deals with marital infidelity, alcoholism, kissing and so on, and if the very mild And Both Were Young had to be sanitized for young adults I cannot imagine this version of Camilla passing approval just a few years later. Now, sure.

I have very mixed opinions on The Live Coal in the Sea, and find it very painful reading, particularly compared with much of the rest of L'Engle's work.

@Wendy B -- I was counting The Small Rain (1945), L'Engle's first novel, as an adult novel. The previous young adult novels were Ilsa (1946), which I'm not reviewing here since the book is out of print and I don't have a copy, and And Both Were Young (1949), making Camilla the third.

But oh, yes, I agree: Jacques is horrible and smarmy. That's exactly why I was surprised to see that he was the only person in that triad who thought of Camilla at all - he really didn't seem the type and he certainly didn't get children. And while I can see that buying the doll could be seen as buying her off, he at least recognized that Camilla was hurting, which was far more than her parents did. And I liked that - it was an early sign of the more complex characters that L'Engle would use later.
Kathleen McDade
9. Wendy B
Oh, but Ilsa isn't a young adult novel, either. It wasn't until 1965 that Camilla Dickinson was republished for teens (which would be why, I guess, even the YA version seems so much... bolder?... than And Both Were Young); so there's eleven years between L'Engle's first YA novel, And Both Were Young, and her second, Meet the Austins.

I have mixed feelings about A Live Coal in the Sea, too--you put it more nicely than I would, but I should probably reread it.
Mari Ness
10. MariCats
Ah, ok. My understanding was that Ilsa has a 13 year old protagonist (which still could mean adult novel) and I've seen the book labelled as young adult by various L'Engle sites and publicity releases, so I went with that, but as I said, I haven't read the book.

Meet the Austins - which I'll be posting about this Thursday -- seems aimed at a definitely younger audience, although some of the Austin books are as definitely aimed at teenagers.

I found A Live Coal in the Sea even more problematic after reading Camilla, mostly because I had problems believing that the Camilla of Camilla would react to certain events the way the Camilla of A Live Coal in the Sea does. I suspect the very large gap between books accounts for some of this, and to be fair this is a minor point.
Darice Moore
11. daricemoore
::looks at your list::

Yep, that would be a good chunk of my childhood, right there, reading and rereading those books. I shall now retrieve the pile from my daughter's room, the better to reread along. :) I remember reading And Both Were Young and Camilla as a teen; when Live Coal came out, I admit that I picked it up and put it back down.

(I didn't realize the Austins predated the Murrys, although I suppose it could be because M L'E had to shop Wrinkle around for so long. Actually, despite the emphasis on time in all of the books, I don't think I'd ever considered them by date of publication. Which, now that I consider it, throws an interesting light on things. 20 years between Meet the Austins and Ring of Endless Light? Wow.)
Pamela Adams
12. Pam Adams
And yeah...honestly I feel the librarians are beginning to flinch from me when I enter the place. Just wait until we start with the Freddy the Pig books.

My librarians- it's a university library- have finally come to the conclusion that I'm just weird. Ooh- Freddy, the Detective!
Mari Ness
13. MariCats
@daricemoore - I read Ring of Endless Light well before Meet the Austins, which just added to my sense of disorientation, but yes, I think that gap does shed an interesting light on things.

I mostly stuck with the Time novels when I was a kid, as I'll probably discuss once we hit the O'Keefe novels. I am not going to blame anyone for putting A Live Coal in the Sea down.
Pamela Adams
14. Pam Adams
L'Engle must have given a huge sigh of relief when she invented the Austins and Murrys and could talk about good parenting for a change.

Zachary's constant surprise at how Vicky's parents act makes sense here- I think his parents were much like Camilla's.

I did wonder if the character of Raffery was a tag on Ayn Rand's Howard Roark, a cold, unfeeling architect.

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